I am the type of person that lets a lot just kinda roll off my shoulder. But a person can only take so much sometimes just a look, a little word , comment, or just the way that you feel things have been taken can rubb someone wrong. I get tired of people that talk out of both sides of their mouth. On one side they are there to help on the other they are there to flush your head in the toilet. I have noticed that a lot of the times the way that people treat me others treat my mother the same way.
I do not think the things bother me as much anymore when it is done to me. I have learned that I will let God take care of most things but I have to let them go so he can. That is the hard part of me letting it go for him. People say they will do one thing and later things have changed so much then they did before. Some people do not even take into consideration the things that is going on or has gone on in a persons life. Sometimes the things that is going on is how we respond to others and what is going on.
Because of some of this I am encouraging my mother to move again this will be the second time since March 31. I do not feel safe with where she is right now. She seems depressed, lonely, and she really needs us right now. Moms has had two friends in the last 2 months treat her wrong they say one thing then they lie to her also. Who knows what else my mom may be going through. The person who owns her place that she is renting said how much she will help take care of her check on her, take her for rides, even out to dinner , but she doesnt fall through on anything but something that hurts my mother. This is it no more I say She is saleing my mothers home that her and dad lived in. And only give her 600 dollars for it because she said it wasnt in the shape that she wanted it in. We were not even given the time to do any real cleaning when we moved out. A lot of the things that were done we could of done. Lets be for real it was time for mom to take a small break. Dad had not even been gone for a month and we moved her. This took not only physical stress on her body but mental stress on her from the 6 months of pain from watching him suffer and then finally pass away.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
The hidden wolf
Sometimes people that you think you know just are not who you think they are!! They really are the wolf in sheep clothing they let you think that they are out there to help you. But they really are not they say things and do things out of spite to just hurt you or even others. They tell people things that are not true just to hurt you and your family. Even to the point where you are scared that you may loose your whole family to the world or worse cause yourself or someone close to be like the wolf.
I feel this person(the wolf) was very vindictive, a liar, and was very horrible to me and my family. Because of the circumstances I am not able to confront them. I do know that I have someone so much more greater on my side to defend me MY LORD. These bad lies and hurt came at the wrong time I feel in my life. But maybe the time was not the wrong time, not sure. I think God was trying to show me that no matter what he is mightier then all and can take care of me and my family. This wolf was trying to tell lies to the authorities to get my children removed from my care. All of this makes you stop, sit, ponder, and even appreciate your family.
We had the authorities called to say we were not taking care of my children (such as no food in the house, they were always dirty, we have rats living in my home, eating wires and cable, and the house is a wreck. )
If any knows me they know I do take care of my children, they do not go to school dirty, rat in my house I would move out before they moved in I DO NOT LIKE RODENTS of any kind. As the house being a mess it may have but how clean to a person is clean. . This person was suppose to be someone who is to stand up for me and my family and be their when I needed her with care and support. This was a very important time of need for my family and my self. Police showed up at my house on the day before my dad was to go into surgery and we were not sure he was even going to make it home. It was a tough time for me my dad had a ulcer in his intestines that exploded and it sat in his parentinel cavity for 3 days and the doctors didnt want to do anything. Was this a time that I needed to worry about my children being taken away from me NO!
My dad went into surgery and this was the last time that I was to really see him alert and awake. He went through surgery and was in recovery for more then a week almost two. His body then started to break down and just start to shut down on him. Oh what the stress not sure where I would of been without God during this whole entire time. As I sit now and think he was with me all long maybe this was something he gave me to try to get my mind on something else to understand I still have a family that i dearly love and Cherish. My family that will be with me through thick and thin.
Going through this trial and realizing that it is finally over at this time in my life is the greatest feeling in the world. I know God took care of my situation and the wolf that has caused all of the trouble in my life. He took her out and I thank him for that so much. What a blessing to me my God is and it is hard to say but thank you for this trial that you have given me to learn through.
I feel this person(the wolf) was very vindictive, a liar, and was very horrible to me and my family. Because of the circumstances I am not able to confront them. I do know that I have someone so much more greater on my side to defend me MY LORD. These bad lies and hurt came at the wrong time I feel in my life. But maybe the time was not the wrong time, not sure. I think God was trying to show me that no matter what he is mightier then all and can take care of me and my family. This wolf was trying to tell lies to the authorities to get my children removed from my care. All of this makes you stop, sit, ponder, and even appreciate your family.
We had the authorities called to say we were not taking care of my children (such as no food in the house, they were always dirty, we have rats living in my home, eating wires and cable, and the house is a wreck. )
If any knows me they know I do take care of my children, they do not go to school dirty, rat in my house I would move out before they moved in I DO NOT LIKE RODENTS of any kind. As the house being a mess it may have but how clean to a person is clean. . This person was suppose to be someone who is to stand up for me and my family and be their when I needed her with care and support. This was a very important time of need for my family and my self. Police showed up at my house on the day before my dad was to go into surgery and we were not sure he was even going to make it home. It was a tough time for me my dad had a ulcer in his intestines that exploded and it sat in his parentinel cavity for 3 days and the doctors didnt want to do anything. Was this a time that I needed to worry about my children being taken away from me NO!
My dad went into surgery and this was the last time that I was to really see him alert and awake. He went through surgery and was in recovery for more then a week almost two. His body then started to break down and just start to shut down on him. Oh what the stress not sure where I would of been without God during this whole entire time. As I sit now and think he was with me all long maybe this was something he gave me to try to get my mind on something else to understand I still have a family that i dearly love and Cherish. My family that will be with me through thick and thin.
Going through this trial and realizing that it is finally over at this time in my life is the greatest feeling in the world. I know God took care of my situation and the wolf that has caused all of the trouble in my life. He took her out and I thank him for that so much. What a blessing to me my God is and it is hard to say but thank you for this trial that you have given me to learn through.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Graduation
My Nephew graduated on Saturday it was a great ceremony outside. It pretty much stayed dry the whole time in Oregon that is a miracle. It was a short ceremony it only lasted for about an hour we waited before for an hour before to save our seats.
After the graduation we went to JJs grandmas place to have cake and to just give our congrats to him personally. It was alot fun to see the kids all enjoying being with JJ and just hanging with him. The next day we left and came home didnt have much time to stay we had to get home to the critters. But we decided hopefully before Tim leaves for Alaska we will make it up again.
After the graduation we went to JJs grandmas place to have cake and to just give our congrats to him personally. It was alot fun to see the kids all enjoying being with JJ and just hanging with him. The next day we left and came home didnt have much time to stay we had to get home to the critters. But we decided hopefully before Tim leaves for Alaska we will make it up again.
Friday, May 21, 2010
I would like to start doing a Friday Flashback but not sure where to start. Maybe just with memories right now until I am able to load pictures on to my computer.
How far back to go not sure maybe to the things I remember the most. My trip to Oregon when I was 8 years old a few years ago. It was before I started 3rd grade we came here on vacation to visit some relatives. Before coming to Oregon we lived in Montana Sun Prairie Village. In a little single wide trailer next to my aunt and uncle and their two kids. During the winter and rainy season the mud which was actually clay would get so caked onto your shoes when just walking to the car that you would of grown at least a foot taller.
Halloween there was so much fun and cold it was always snowy when we went Trick or Treating. I dressed up as a gypsy and my brother would dress up as a pirate. Since my brother is 3 years older he would take me out and actually lose me in the snow drifts, wow the fun we had.
I had a couple best friends Wendy and Lori. wow the thing that we did ,!!!
At this time my dad worked for the grain company and drove truck for them. Sometimes if we were real lucky he would take my brother and i to school. How fun this was seriously. Dad would bring wheat home and mom sometimes would make homemade bread oh the smell that it made in the house. We then moved to Astoria Oregon and for a very short time lived with my Aunt and uncle. We then found a big house in Astoria on 16th and Grand boy was my room big I even had two closets. I played in one and hung my clothes in the other. When school started I went to Astor school it was fun and had a lot of stairs. This was before it had the elevator boy those kids are lucky now..
I first had Mr Fick as my Teacher and then a new teacher began so they asked students to decide if they wanted to be in that class or stay where they were. I decided something new could be fun so at this time my teacher was Mrs Goin, Shortly after starting school in her class my parents found a house in warrenton so I had to switch schools before it barely began.
We moved to a house in the country and on the hill. I had to go to the Warrenton School but because they were building a new one we were bused to Astoria to Central school. I then got a teacher was not very nice and seemed to isolate me and pick on me often. Mrs Crockett she was not a very nice teacher and I'm sorry for all the others that had to be in her classroom. I made a few friends Stephanie, Christal, Cindy, and I think Tammy not sure I will have to up date this once I can remember more about this.
How far back to go not sure maybe to the things I remember the most. My trip to Oregon when I was 8 years old a few years ago. It was before I started 3rd grade we came here on vacation to visit some relatives. Before coming to Oregon we lived in Montana Sun Prairie Village. In a little single wide trailer next to my aunt and uncle and their two kids. During the winter and rainy season the mud which was actually clay would get so caked onto your shoes when just walking to the car that you would of grown at least a foot taller.
Halloween there was so much fun and cold it was always snowy when we went Trick or Treating. I dressed up as a gypsy and my brother would dress up as a pirate. Since my brother is 3 years older he would take me out and actually lose me in the snow drifts, wow the fun we had.
I had a couple best friends Wendy and Lori. wow the thing that we did ,!!!
At this time my dad worked for the grain company and drove truck for them. Sometimes if we were real lucky he would take my brother and i to school. How fun this was seriously. Dad would bring wheat home and mom sometimes would make homemade bread oh the smell that it made in the house. We then moved to Astoria Oregon and for a very short time lived with my Aunt and uncle. We then found a big house in Astoria on 16th and Grand boy was my room big I even had two closets. I played in one and hung my clothes in the other. When school started I went to Astor school it was fun and had a lot of stairs. This was before it had the elevator boy those kids are lucky now..
I first had Mr Fick as my Teacher and then a new teacher began so they asked students to decide if they wanted to be in that class or stay where they were. I decided something new could be fun so at this time my teacher was Mrs Goin, Shortly after starting school in her class my parents found a house in warrenton so I had to switch schools before it barely began.
We moved to a house in the country and on the hill. I had to go to the Warrenton School but because they were building a new one we were bused to Astoria to Central school. I then got a teacher was not very nice and seemed to isolate me and pick on me often. Mrs Crockett she was not a very nice teacher and I'm sorry for all the others that had to be in her classroom. I made a few friends Stephanie, Christal, Cindy, and I think Tammy not sure I will have to up date this once I can remember more about this.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Trials of Blessings
Wow the time has finally come to see my oldest graduate from high school. Timmy is such a blessing to me everything that he has gone through I feel that he can only make it with Gods strength. I know that with everything that we have gone through we couldn't of made it without God.
God was their with Timmy last February during his Accident. I feel that if this didn't happen none of my family would be where they are today. God has taken care of us in more ways then any one could imagine. Sometimes it is tough to wait on God but I know prayers are answered in his time. Any where from salvation to just support when we need him. He even brings the ones back that have strayed away to the point where they love him more then they did before. I thank him for that!!
God was there when my dad passed away and he still is here now. But it is tough especially with graduation and all . All of my dads grand kids were the greatest in his eyes and they all know it and he just couldn't wait to be there when they graduated from high school. He was the first one to get the call last February that Timmy was hurt and possible dead. How hard that was for him to make the call to me to tell me my son was hurt his (grandson) .
If it wasn't for this I think not only one of my children would be gone but probably it would be two. It has been a tough couple of years. But through my trials I am learning a lot to trust the one that really matters. When I don't take the time to talk to God in the morning and give him my first thought of the day my day turns in to a bad day.
I am excited that God has given me the chance to see my son graduate from High School. every time I look at him I am able to see the gift that God has given me and it is one of the greatest gifts in the world.
I would like to invite everyone to Tim's graduation Saturday June 5 at 4 pm and to have cake and ice cream on Sunday around 4 at our house. ( pray for sunshine)
God was their with Timmy last February during his Accident. I feel that if this didn't happen none of my family would be where they are today. God has taken care of us in more ways then any one could imagine. Sometimes it is tough to wait on God but I know prayers are answered in his time. Any where from salvation to just support when we need him. He even brings the ones back that have strayed away to the point where they love him more then they did before. I thank him for that!!
God was there when my dad passed away and he still is here now. But it is tough especially with graduation and all . All of my dads grand kids were the greatest in his eyes and they all know it and he just couldn't wait to be there when they graduated from high school. He was the first one to get the call last February that Timmy was hurt and possible dead. How hard that was for him to make the call to me to tell me my son was hurt his (grandson) .
If it wasn't for this I think not only one of my children would be gone but probably it would be two. It has been a tough couple of years. But through my trials I am learning a lot to trust the one that really matters. When I don't take the time to talk to God in the morning and give him my first thought of the day my day turns in to a bad day.
I am excited that God has given me the chance to see my son graduate from High School. every time I look at him I am able to see the gift that God has given me and it is one of the greatest gifts in the world.
I would like to invite everyone to Tim's graduation Saturday June 5 at 4 pm and to have cake and ice cream on Sunday around 4 at our house. ( pray for sunshine)
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